VIDEO: Kim Goldman Talks the O.J. Simpson Trial and Still Wanting to Meet the Man She Suspects Killed Her Brother

It’s been more than 25 years since Kim Goldman’s brother Ron was brutally killed alongside Nicole Brown Simpson, but the heartache of losing him remains with her to this day. On Wednesday’s Stern Show, Kim told Howard about the grief she and her father, Fred Goldman, are still forced to deal with.

“This is not an easy process,” Kim said during her Stern Show interview. “Just because our case was so widely publicized. It doesn’t mean that my grief is any more than somebody else’s, it’s just more exposed.”

Kim Goldman didn’t ask to become a household name but that’s exactly what she became during O.J. Simpson’s mid-1990s murder trial. Kim was frequently seen sitting in the courtroom as cameras broadcast the proceedings to millions of viewers watching at home. On the morning of Oct. 3, 1995, 10 months after the trial began, Kim and her father watched as a jury found Simpson not guilty of both murders. She remembers the defense team celebrating after the verdict was read and told Howard one of O.J.’s attorneys, Johnnie Cochran, even looked and mouthed “gotcha” at her.

“You’re entitled to have the best possible defense you can afford and I get that … I just don’t have to appreciate it, like it, respect it. And I think that what they did was beyond reproach and the way that they handled themselves was disgusting,” Goldman said of Simpson and his legal team.

She also recalled the infamous day in court that Simpson was asked to try on the leather glove found at the crime scene. The defense argued the glove didn’t fit, but Kim doesn’t buy it.

“He bent his fingers … he said he was pulling it down but he was not,” Goldman said. “He was an actor.”

Several key players from the O.J. trial have shared their stories with Kim on her new podcast, “Confronting: O.J. Simpson,” including prosecuting attorneys Marcia Clark and Christopher Darden, lead investigator Tom Lange, and multiple members of the jury. But would Kim want to sit down with O.J. himself?

“We’ve put it out to him through his attorney,” Kim told Howard. “It shifts for me, the reason I’d want to confront him now.”

Years ago, Kim attempted to visit Simpson while he was serving time at a Nevada prison for a 2007 robbery and assault at the Palace Station Hotel in Las Vegas.

“I wanted to see him behind bars,” Goldman told Howard. “I wanted him in jail for my brother’s crime, but I was grateful that the system worked in Vegas.”

Her letters to Simpson went unanswered and her opportunity to see him locked up with her own eyes never came – O.J. was granted parole and released in 2017.

Simpson has since taken to Twitter, uploading videos of himself talking about a wide range of topics often while playing golf. Having O.J. out of jail and back in the spotlight has been unsettling for Kim and her family.

“It’s hard to explain what that feels like. It’s just, he commands so much attention,” Kim said. “Now I’m on edge. So, when he pops up … it jolts me.”

While Kim knows her connection to O.J. Simpson will never be erased, she told Howard she hopes the world will remember her brother and the good person he was. She shared how close they became as kids following their parents’ divorce.

During a trip to Florida when Kim was a teenager, the Goldman family was involved in a freak auto accident after a passing car crashed into a tree. The collision launched the battery out of that vehicle and into the windshield of the Goldman’s car, spewing battery acid all over Kim.

“My brother pulled me from the car,” Goldman said.

“So your brother was brave,” Howard stated.

“You know, it’s something that I think gets overlooked a lot with him,” Kim continued. What’s rarely brought up about Ron Goldman is the likelihood he arrived at Nicole Brown Simpson’s home that day and discovered her in an altercation with O.J. Coroners found defense wounds on Ron, meaning he probably put up a fight against his murderer.

“The evidence shows that my brother was killed first because his blood was found on Nicole … and there was no blood of Nicole found on my brother,” Kim explained.

Kim told Howard she will sometimes watch old home movies of Ron in order to remember the sound of her brother’s voice. But while part of grieving is to remember the past, Kim also tries to set her sights on the future.

“I’m moving forward,” she told Howard. “Some days I’m better at balancing it and other days I’m not.”

Kim Goldman’s podcast “Confronting: O.J. Simpson” is available now.